I read your comment on the discussion about feeling your pets after they die. I just wanted you to know my heart goes out to you, and I have the same feelings to say to you, that I left on the discussion.
What I wrote;
I am so glad your senses where up so you could feel her presence.
Rusty is still with me, but I am hoping to feel his security and love once he passes, like you.
He has been an angle on earth saving my life so many times, almost daily. I believe he will still be my guardian angel looking out for me from up obove. He will find a way to still alert me, or protect me.
I think this is my only way of coping after he makes it to rainbow bridge. The worry that I will pass away from my illness myself is a huge fear. Knowing he will still be with me in soul, will comfort me.
I love stories like yours. So sweet, loving, and shows how wonderful of a mom you really are. Hold those experiences dear, no matter what anyone else thinks, you are the one bonded to your dog and the one that will experience these moments. You know your dog better than anyone else, and will feel it stronger than anyone else.
My new pup Spirit has not had her formal service dog training yet. So I will not have that saftly net of a service dog. In fact after Rusty passes she will have to leave town and go to San Diego to the service dog organization. I call it doggie boot camp. I got to raise her as a puppy, so she knows my family and other pets, then she goes back for the serious boot camp.
During this time I will be all alone with my illness, and grief. My husband loves Rusty so much too, but does not understand my intence level of grief. I have one child, Loosing Rusty feels almost like loosing a child. I think loosing my son would be so much worse as he should not die before me, but it is expected with dogs to pass away and not stay forever. So we know this when we take on a pet, they will die. It is just the bond between us is so so strong.
I have greived heavilly over my past dogs, but never like this. He is with me 24/7, and is the reason I am still here today. I can never say my grief is harder than anyone elses, as many of us have such huge hearts. I just have an added fear for my own life that is very real. The day I found out the cancer had spread and nothing could be done was the most emotional day of my life. I cried all day, my body hurt, and I was so exausted. I imagine that cycle will come again on his day.
God bless you for giving her such a wonderful life!
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What are your dog(s) names and ages:
Tiki 13 yrs - Fancee ? 3- 5 yrs rescue dog - and Skeeter born 1/2009
What is your dog's breed? (If you have more than one dog, please list a name followed by breed.)
Tiki - long haired Chihuahua - March 19
Toby - Yorkie, passed on
Fancee - 2- 5 yrs - mix possibly part border collie, her birthday will be the day she came into my life.. Feb 12
Skeeter - Cavalier - King Charles Spaniel Born Jan 19 2009
I like all dogs, animials in general.. but am especially taken w/ Chihuahua's, Yorkies, And Cavalier's
What is one thing your dog does that reminds you to open your heart and love more deeply?
Always by my side.. always. Tiki, is very patient w/ me.
Tiki was 11 yrs old, when my grandson Nik was born.. she took to the baby right away. She had to be near him .. lay w/ him, she jumped if he moved.. she watched his every move. Even now, at 1 1/2 yrs old, Nik and she are so bonded. She greets him at the door for moochies, they play.. no words exchanged.. just nudges from each other. she lays w/ him if he is sick, and watch's him for me if I am busy. For a chihuahua.. that says a lot!
Each furbaby has a great personality.. Fancee is sweet .. and loving, Skeeter is a puppy full of energy and loving.. smart.