Hi Susan..... I know it ihs been almost a year for us losing our beloved Hamilton and Willow . I miss him so much but am moving on with an adoption of a 10 yr. old Golden who needs a good home. I have some space for him in my heart. I hope you are well and your memories of Willow are only good ones!!!! take care let me hear from you if you can......
HI SUSAN,MY NAME IS BILL,FROM WELLS MAINE,I LOST MY BABY GIRL LAST NIGHT TO CANCER.IT WAS SO HARD TO CALL THE VET,BUT I HAD TO.ANGELS BREATHING WAS VERY BAD,SHE HAD NASAL CANCER.MY VET PUT HER ON COOKED HAMBURG,CARROTS STRING BEANS COOKED EGGS AND PLAIN RICE,WITH HERBS FROM HIM OR COOKED CHICKEN,TO BUILD UP HER IMMUNE SYSTEMHE ALSO TOLD ME NOT TO GIVE ANY MORE YEARLY SHOTS,JUST THE RABIES.IT BREAKS DOWN THEIR IMMUNE SYSTEM.
ANGEL LASTED 4 MONTHS MORE THAN HE THOUGHT,WITH WHAT WE DID.WITH HER FOOD.ANGEL DIED IN MY ARMS LAST NIGHT AT 5PM.I SAID TO HER BEFORE THE VET
PUT THE NEEDLE IN,THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME,AND LETTING ME LOVE YOU.
IT WAS OVER IN SECONDS. I HELD ANGEL WHAT SEEMED FOR EVER,HUGGED HER AND KISSED HER OVER AND OVER AGAIN,ITS LIKE A BAD DREAM .MY HOME IS SO EMPTY
NOW,NO MORE POOP WALKS OR GOING OUT FOR A RIDE IN THE CAR,WHICH SHE LOVED SO MUCH.I HAVE MEMORIES ,BUT I WANT TO HOLD HER FOREVER WITH ME
AND NEVER LET HER GO.MY HEART IS BROKEN IN TWO,TIME DOES HEAL,I KNOW ANGEL IS WITH GOD IN HEAVEN AND ISWHOLE AGAIN AND RUNNING AROUND .
I WILL SEE ANGEL AGAIN FOREVER.
Thanks for the support Susan. I feel like such a weakling right now. I am supposed to be doing other things but I cannot help but sit and think, cry or do research. I never thought somehting like this would happen. I always thought Taiko would just gradually slow down and go blind or deaf and get hind weakness like all of the other dogs that I have known. This is too sudden. Just a month and a half ago he was bouncy, energetic and his coat was nice. Now he is shedding a lot, he is tired, and he seems down. I hope it is just the antibiotic that he is on that is causing this, but I am so worried. The mass in his lung was huge but they could not determine what it was definitively (yet) without removing the whole thing. That is just not something I want to put him through. The antibiotics have caused his other masses on his body to shrink though, so I am hopeful. I don't know...
ugh it is so hard right now. I got a lot of support right when she was diagnosised 2 months ago (hey she has lived 7 weeks past my vets estimate). But now not so much. People have gone on with their lives, and I live every day with my sick dog. Trying to figure out what she will eat today. Trying to figure out how to get her pills in her.
She has thrown up twice in the last week. I can't think that is good.
Breathing is worse.
My vet now thinks she might have a nerve ending tumor in her shoulder which is causing most of her pain. We have bumped up the tramadol and deramx. She also explained the hind end weakness as possibly coming from her being anemic or because she isn't getting enough oxygen. There is nothing I can do about either of these things.
I am in hospice care. I am exhausted. I am sad a lot of the time, but I don't cry enough to let my feelings out.
Oh this just sucks so much.
Hi Susan... How is Willow doing???? I think about you alot and hope your having some good days with your special friend. I miss my Hamilton so much and don't get through the day without tears..... I feel his life presense right next to me much of each day and kiss his picture alot.... some might think i'm crazy..... not us.... we know how much we love our dear pets and kissing a picture is all we have sometimes...... take care judy
i am so glad you are having good times with Willow . I pray they last a long time you will never be ready for what is to come even when you think you are ...it hits with such force and all you want is one more day...... it has been two weeks today that i said goodbye to Hamilton and everytime i see his picture tears wellup in my eyes... i drive by the park where we went swimming and i can hardly see..... nothing prepared me for this but i do know someday it will be better and i also know that he is watching and telling me that he is at peace and happy.... that makes me happy... of sorts. i will keep you and your family in my prayers for many more good and happy days with Willow. You had asked several weeks ago what made Hammie so special.one day i will tell you when i can type without so many tears. It sounds like Willow is your constant companion. Keep her close every day!
That's where knowing Willow comes into play. With Bandit, when he had the brain tumor, it was when his seizures got so they were no longer controlled by meds and he quit eating. One night when I got home from work he was "crying"...the only thing that would quiet him was for me to hold him...I knew that was the night. With Mouta, I think it was a combination of things. We got her MRI results, showing her cancer was back and had spread, she had within a day or so lost the ability to use her hind legs, and she started losing bowel & bladder control. She NEVER went potty in the house and for her to do so was humiliating for her. We had to end her suffering before she lost ALL dignity. That was the day of the "look". We new we had done we could for her...she was in pain...and there was nothing else we could do for HER. To let her keep going would've purely for us and totally selfish!
I hope Willow is doing better. I've been following your and Judy's comments...and I know you wonder how you'll know "when it's time". I have been through this twice..one a brain tumor in 1998 and with Mouta last year. Believe me...you WILL know...Willow will tell you. You will see in her eyes a look that says "I love you, but I need to go!"