"Do you think it's too soon?"
That's the question Aly sent in the other day. Her story brought tears to my eyes, and I wanted to share it - and my answer - with you.
Here's Aly's email:
My name is Aly and i am 16 years old.
My Family recently had a house fire and
we lost our dog.
He was really close to us becuse as long
as i can remember he's been around. We had
gotten him out of the house but we think he
went back in to look for my mom and older
brother who were not home that night.
But anyways more to the point of this,
every one else in my family seems to think
that we have to get another dog right away.
Do you think its to soon??
I mean we only lost our dog (Duke) a
month ago and they are acting like it
never really happended.
I guess i wouldn't really mind if we got
a new dog right away but the fact that we
have to get the exact same dog as before
because my dad said that it was the same dog
or no dog at all.
I would love to hear your thoughts on this.
My response is here:
Thank you for writing. Your questions are big ones, and I'll do my best to answer from the heart.
First of all, I'm really sorry that Duke died. He sounds like an amazing dog, to go back in to a burning house to look for your mother and brother. It's obvious that he really cared about you all, or he would not have risked his life like that.
And you are a really good dog owner to think so carefully and deeply about what to do next.
Everyone grieves in very different ways. Some people cry for a long time, and really focus on the pain of losing their loved one. Others clam up about it, saving their tears for private moments. Others pretend that nothing happened, that it was all not a big deal. There are as many ways to express grief as there are people.
So I'm not surprised that you are feeling differently than other family members seem to. All of you are going to react a little differently, it's totally natural. It doesn't mean that any one of you cares more or less than the others, either, it just means that you process the grief differently.
The bottom line answer to your question "Do you think it's too soon?"
is I don't know
. There is no rule set in stone about how soon to get a new dog. It is such a personal decision to make, I can't possibly tell for sure.
No dog will ever replace Duke. Duke has his own special place in your hearts, and no dog will ever act, look, feel, or be Duke. It's impossible. My new puppy, Kanga, is a Maltese, just like my wonderful Maui was. But even though she looks a LOT like Maui did at her age, she is a completely different dog! I couldn't replace Maui if I tried, and you will never be able to replace Duke.
Since you are not the decision maker (it sounds like Dad is), I would give you this advice during this time:
1. Don't make any rules for yourself
about when or what kind of dog to get. Your new dog will be the PERFECT new dog for you, somehow, no matter what. Since you don't have full control over which dog or when to get it, just try to relax about it. If Dad insists on getting the same kind of dog, be as supportive as you can. He is dealing with his own grief his own way, and any dog will be lucky to be with you all. It doesn't matter whether the dog looks like Duke or not, it will be its own dog and you will love it for itself (and likely, so will your Dad).
2. Say everything you need to say to Duke
so that you can focus on and take joy in your new dog. One of the best things I did when I was first dealing with Maui's death was to go over her whole life, out loud, on video. I talked about the first day I saw her, funny things she did, what she loved to eat. I told the whole story of her life right up until that day. It was so moving to go over all of it, and I felt so close to her. It really helped me to see why I cared so much and missed her so much. It helped me to grieve fully. You can still do this with Duke, just talk to him as if he is with you. Record it or videotape it so if you need to you can play it back.
3. Go easy on yourself
. You have suffered a major loss - and a fire can be very scary. Don't expect yourself to just "be OK", and don't expect others in your family to react in certain ways, either.
There are no rules on how to deal with loss, or how to move on. So I just encourage you to relax, be honest with yourself and others about what you want, and let things flow as naturally as possible.
I guarantee that you and everyone else will know when it is the right time to get another dog. And you will also "know" your new dog when you meet him or her. It will be obvious to all of you. In the meantime take care of yourself and your family.
Thanks again for writing,